Dance Recital and Graduation..

My baby did amazing at her dance recital! I am so proud of her! And yesterday was her preschool graduation. I sat and cried through it...something I never thought I would do..it was all kind of like a dream. It seems like just yesterday I had her..I hate that we only have one kiddo since I only get to experience everything once, but on the other hand...that means we have to enjoy every second of each milestone even if it is the last! Gracie sang her heart out last night. Such proud parents! I am truly blessed to have such a sweet, little girl!!!

Jeff

On April 19th my dear friend Jeff Astle passed away. He has been a friend for as long as I can remember...back in the day he was really close to my older brother Matt until Matt got married and moved away and then he became really close with my little brother Mark. Jeff has been to every party we have ever had at my house...every game night we have ever had...every barbecue...it will not be the same without him. Jeff's funeral yesterday was beautiful. What a great tribute to such a great guy. His sweet parents lost their other son Steve this time last year and I can't even begin to imagine what they are going through. At the funeral many friends were quoted with things they remembered about Jeff and that is when I lost it. It is so scary how fast it can all end. Jeff has had a great life but has had lots of health challenges along the way including two kidney transplants. Last night all of his friends gathered and we had a barbecue to celebrate his life. I know he is with Steve now and I am sure it was an amazing reunion. Hug those around you, treasure them, love them...enjoy every second..life is so precious!

New Day

The sun is shining...it is supposed to me a gorgeous weekend and it is a new day...my heart aches so bad for my sweet Daisy and my puppies. The house is so quiet. I just dropped Gracie off at preschool and walked in the door and it just hit so hard to not have Daisy come running to me. I know with all of my heart that she is happy and pain free now and with the rest of my sweet babies and what an amazing reunion that had to have been. I can't wait until I am with them again someday too. I look forward to seeing Peanut everyday. She doesn't understand where all of the dogs have gone but she sure gives me tons of loves and kisses and right now that is just what this heart needs.

Started a new diet that several guys at work are doing and it has been the hardest diet I have ever been on! But I can do this! Lost 7 pounds the first week and I am now at a stand still which is so frustrating! I thought going without diet coke would be tough but I haven't even missed it! I am started to get my energy back which is awesome. One day at a time! I can do this!

I am off to get ready for work and tonight we have a barbecue/game night with friends! Let the good times roll!

My Sweet Daisy

Daisy passed away yesterday morning and I miss that girl so much! My heart aches so bad for her. I am truly blessed that she was with us for as long as she was. After Millie, Dusty and Sadie passed away she just hasn't seemed the same. She has been so lonely and had pretty much stopped eating. I think she hung on as long as she could. With Daisy it has been different...with each baby that has passed, a part of me died with them, but I always had another one to hug and comfort me..this time with her being the last, I don't have one to hold or comfort me. I feel so empty. This house feels so empty and quiet. It just isn't the same. But on a happy note...I know with all of my heart that she is home...home with Sadie, Dusty, Millie and all of my other pets and family and friends that have passed on and that in itself brings me comfort I can't even begin to explain. To know she is pain free, healthy and happy running around with my other babies is the best gift ever. I am so grateful for the Plan of Salvation and the opportunity we will have to be together again someday if we live righteously. I don't know how people get through times like this without that belief. I prayed so hard on Tuesday night that Heavenly Father would come and get her and he did! I KNOW he hears and answers all of our prayers. Sometimes in ways we don't understand but I KNOW they are answered and I know he is always there. I am one lucky, lucky girl. Not only for all that I have been blessed with but for the knowledge of knowing my Heavenly Father lives and loves me beyond comprehension. He is my best friend and always there and I couldn't ever ask for anything more than that!

Date

Today is going to be a good day! I am finally done with the Home and Garden show and I am so in need of a break! I dropped Gracie off for preschool...I am picking her up soon, hitting McDonalds and then we are off to her Kindergarten Round Up testing...then my cute friend is going to watch Gracie tonight and I have a super hot date with Luke! Dinner and a movie! I am a lucky girl..and did I mention...I took the day off of work:) It is gorgeous outside! Here's to an amazing day!!!

Handsome Boys

Just a funny...picked Gracie up from school today and the first thing she tells me is that she likes boys that are handsome...and I said "You do?" and she says "Uh huh..and so does Dad! He likes boys that are handsome too!" I am still laughing!!!

Disney on Ice

Yesterday was a fun family day...we went to Red Robin, Build a Bear and Disney on Ice. Gracie has a blast. She made the cutest puppy and named her Daisy. Speaking of Daisy...our sweet Daisy is almost gone. She has stopped eating and drinking completely. Luke and I don't know if it is cancer but she will be turning 12 on Friday and I know she misses her friends so much. I hate to see her starve to death but I have tried everything and she just doesn't want anything anymore, so Luke and I are praying she will go on her own peacefully so we don't have to make that decision for her. Having to have Sadie and Millie put to sleep nearly killed me and I so don't want to do that with Daisy but I don't want her to suffer. I can't even imagine what it will be like walking in the door every night and not having her come running over to greet me wagging her tail. Dogs have always been such a huge and wonderful part of our family and I know in the future they will be too...I just miss her already:(